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Just venting Hi, i’ve never posted here before. I’m 25 years old and I’ve stuttered my whole life. Recently, about half a year ago, i was going through a period of excellent fluency. I don’t know what I was doing correctly but I was offered a position as a manager at a restaurant and excellent things were coming my way. Skip to today and my stutter has gotten worse. Out of nowhere and I have no idea why. Now, my stutter is the cause of my depression. I know that if i was fluent with my speech, I’d have absolutely no issues in life because to be fucking honest, this speech impediment is a fucking curse. I really don’t know what to do. Just on my way back from work, i fought with all my might to not cry because i couldn’t stop thinking about how I don’t want to live this life anymore. I’d do anything, ANYTHING to talk fluently again. Absolutely ANYTHING. At this point, i feel like this is a sick joke and I really don’t want to live my whole life like this. I don’t know what to do anymore and I’m losing hope man. Everyday i fall deeper into a hole where i’m not sure if i can climb out of. The worst thing is that, yeah maybe tomorrow i’ll be in a better mood but just thinking I have to live with fluency problem my whole life, makes me feel like life is not worth it. For what? For people to stare at me when I have a block? For people to treat me as if a had a learning disablility because of my stutter? Fuck that man, 25 years is fucking enough