My experience with stuttering and how it's affected me

My experience with stuttering and how it's affected me Hey there My name is Tyrin-Nicholas Romano Morton. I was born and raised in Ontario, more specifically I was born in Toronto ON and spent the most of my life in Hamilton ON. For the longest time I was a happy go lucky kid striking up conversations with everyone around me and making friends every I went. I had a girlfriend, I wasn't afraid to talk to people and my life was great. Then all of a sudden it hit me like a bag of bricks. I grew a realization that I had a stuttering issue in 2020. It started with me not being able to say certain words, and sometimes not being able to talk at all like I would would choke up on air or something. Moving over to highschool was hell for me as I felt like I didn't belong anywhere I went as everyone around me was happy and talking freely with their friends. Meanwhile whenever I even tried to talk to the teachers I had a hard time. Forget about talking to other kids my age it was hell. Me being young and not understanding what was going on. I decided to blame it on myself. Which led me into depression and majorly wanting to figure out just what the hell was happening, as before highschool I was able to chat amongst people freely with no hesitation. I had no idea what was going on so I turned to a life of shutting myself off and not talking to anyone hardly even my family. Finally in my final year of highschool I retrieved speech therapy. At first I was scared to openly admit that I had a stuttering issue, as I was ashamed of it. There were times when I even felt like I was wasting my therapists time. I only had about 4 months of speech therapy. As you could probably guess that was in no way enough time to help. So I looked online for solutions of how to fix stuttering. I tried all the exercises I've lost jobs because of my stutter. When I was working at shoppers a customer came up to me and asked me where the laundry detergent was. It went a little something like this "the laundry d...d....d....d...d...d....d... I didn't even get all the way through saying detergent before I gave up and pointed them towards another employee. I got so depressed over that I quit the job. Over the years I've had no friends. I've been afraid to ask questions in school or do presentations. I've been slowly drifting away from outside the household connections, and I've just been a complete wreck. This is why I created this reddit server. So that I can spread awareness to the people out there of what stuttering is and how badly it hurts to have the disability. As well to spread kindness and happiness to those alike me. Who are struggling with this issue. I know you can make it through this struggle. I know what your going through. I feel your pain. I love you. I know you can do this God bless you guys. Amen. 🙏🏽