same situation here. occasional mild stuttering maybe it's milder than you, my parents never noticed that i struggle with stuttering until i talked to them in my early 30s. my worst spot was when i found out when my daughter started to stutter. she started about 3, it was very heavy back then but got better now. she's 16 but she didn't completely grow out of it. i think she's accepting and coping it pretty well, i think our effort to take her to therapies and trying to open and embrace it helped. i moved to US when i was 24 from south korea. back when i was a teenager in korea, i had no information about stuttering. no books, no therapies, no one to talk to. even though i could manage to hide it pretty well, it was pretty hard whenever i had to endure weird looks of friends and strangers whenever i get blocks and blinking with my mouth half open. i remember one time i couldn't say my destination after i rode on a taxi. my english is not bad but never gotten as good as other foreigners after 20 something years. i think it's partly because there's always this fear of stuttering and that made me to avoid small talks with strangers as much as possible. so i have a harder time doing small natural talk with people than talking in work situation or talking about a specific intellectual subject. now in my late 40s. my stuttering didn't get better, but i naturally grew not to care about how other people thinking about me. so it's gotten easier and better to deal with the embarrassment after stuttering. same with english. people gets awkward when they don't understand my broken english. it used to ruin my day or two but now i just shrugs it off. i love this quote(some says it's from churchill but not sure) >When you’re 20 you care what everyone thinks, when you’re 40 you stop caring what everyone thinks, when you’re 60 you realize no one was ever thinking about you in the first place. so hopefully natural emergence of grumpiness of being old helps you too in time. :) i understand it's hard sometimes, but you're not alone. do your own things. have a goal and work hard on it. thank you for sharing your thought with us.