Dude this hit so hard. It sucks. They don't get it. They won't. So as you said, fuck that shit. Give yourself a break. And when you're in a better place, try to work on that aspect again. I stopped speech therapy from 15 to 19 years old. When I returned, I made sure the method was different than the ones I had tried before. I was also older and had a better understanding of myself and where I stood. That gave me a new perspective on the whole thing. So just take it easy.