Slowly giving up

Slowly giving up Im 16 right now and i really cant see myself keep living past 18 if everyday is like this I feel like an embarassment to my family everytime i open my mouth,my stutter became worser and worse each passing day,keeping up a conversation is already a big challenge for me.. i get so self anxious everytime i open my mouth,it just hurts mentally being like this.. I just want to talk normally like a normal person would,no more stammering,no more blocks,no more searching for a substitute word in mind,no more looking in ground with shame,no more judging look from people around me,no more people sighing when they talk to me,can't they see im trying my best just to... talk?