Probably more naive and inconsiderate about a lot of things. This speech disorder, although not preferable whatsoever, has made me realise a great deal of things about life and the subject of disabilities in general. I believe it has made me more compassionate for others and has given myself more self-awareness. Not to disregard the massive impact being a stutterer has on daily life and mental health but there are worse conditions and disorders out there, that do put certain things into *perspective*. We are all fighting the same battle, but we cannot allow this enemy to attach its harness onto us and control our lives. Contemplating on what life could have been does more bad than good. This is the hand we were dealt, and we need to live as best we can with what we have, whilst continually bettering ourselves in the process. Personally, I've been fortunate enough to have been on the **McGuire Programme**, which made me realise that before I went on it, I wasn't actively doing anything about my speech, I gave up. I had accepted that this was the way my speech was going to be for the rest of my life and was constantly thinking about the what if's (i.e. The title of this post). Now, I have a meaning to go on and be a better version of myself, someone with dignity, self-respect and most of all, discipline. It's a life process but working on it is 100% better than doing nothing at all.