Thank you for reaching out, i agree i spent 75 percent of my time in my head analyzing every possible outcome of a situation is definitely pointless to be doing that and definitely harms my our speech. Yes i think with my emotions rather than logically us stutterers just have so much built emotion built up from being in our own world so much. Alcohol is a hit or miss for me too to be honest, being in a complete black out i am almost completely fluent or maybe i just think i am . I know ive grown i used to run to the bathroom and cry in school now i just shrug it off until ive had enough im lucky to not have such direct discrimination now a days tho. This did help me a lot ur not a lone buddy continue on your journey. Defintely easier said than done