I was an MC. I stuttered but I’m still alive.

I was an MC. I stuttered but I’m still alive. Previous post: https://www.reddit.com/r/Stutter/s/68dvJOILbY (TW: family trauma) Hi guys, I was an MC for a really big event. And I think I nailed it. Yes, I stuttered at first. It was a bit ugly. But I kept going. I found my breath and heard my voice. And I just kept going until the stutter disappeared. I’m so proud of myself. I told my team that I stutter a lot (especially when I’m nervous). And my boss confessed to me that she also stuttered when she was my age. She has now found a way to speak slowly. I was wondering if she stuttered because I noticed she uses some word fillers a lot. It was a relieve to tell my team. My position is quite high and demands a lot of speaking skills. I might be selected as an MC for future events because we have no more options lol but I see it as practice makes perfect :) If I can do it, then you can do it too! And I can say this because I’ve had a very freaking hard past about stuttering. This subreddit has been the only place in my life where I feel like I can be vulnerable, so thank you for making this a safe space. I know that most of us stutterers are more inclined ro feel depressed because of this invisible disability we have. I’ve always felt like this my whole life. Since I was young, my mum would slap me every time I stuttered. It’s funny because when I was 3 years old, I could read really well. At the age of 5, I was selected to broadcast news in front of the whole school every week. I remember feeling excited just to read and hear my own voice. I was so confident to the point I felt like I was cocky lol But then I turned 10, and I started to stutter. At first it was funny and cute, but then it got worse. That was when my mum would try to be super strict about my speech. She would slap my face until I said the words that bl ocked me. It took me now to find out that she also stutters sometimes despite her career as a journalist. I’m trying to forgive her—that maybe because she could overcome her stutter, she thought I would too? Or maybe she feels shame towards herself and she can’t bear seeing it in me? I don’t know the reason to why she wasn’t supportive about my stutter, but at least I know it’s what has caused me a low self-esteem.