I agree completely. It definately depends on the environment to create the severity of the stutter. Despite the environment you persevered! That’s what i love to read the most. And yes! Forgetting that you stutter while having the fear of stuttering is verbally a paradox. I stutter too, and when i came across this i decided to completely block out my thoughts as to replace the inability of forgetting that i stutter. I blocked out my thoughts by focussing very strongly on what i hear and see around me. This way i gained control over whether i wanted to think or not but it allowed me to still multitask with something else. A lot of problems originate from the inability to stop thinking.