I can see it from both sides. 2 times in my adult life, for about 3 months each time, I was able to achieve seemingly complete fluency. Both times I went through a 3 week intensive fluency shaping program. 8 hours a day in clinic 6-7 days a week. Plus daily homework practice. Most of the people achieved a high rate of fluency. But both times, I was always the one who left there sounding like I never stuttered a day in my life. It’s a good feeling. A phenomenal feeling actually. I mean… it’s like getting the one thing you never thought you could have. And both times, after a 2-3 months, the fluency started chipping away. Within 6 months it was like I never went through the program at all. To have fluency and then lose it again, **really** sucks. I mean it’s like… soul crushing. And then of course you start to blame yourself. I should have practiced more, I should have not given up, yada yada yada. That is real trauma. If I could do it all over again, I’d focus on trying to accept my life as a person who stutters and getting away from the idea that it’s something to be embarrassed about or ashamed of. We’re always trying to fit in with the world. And when we stutter in front of people who don’t stutter, it’s almost like the feeling of “being caught” stuttering. At least for me. And I think that’s just a really bad thing. I know in my head I’m not at fault for stuttering. I know I’m not doing anything wrong. But I guess I don’t know that because I feel it all the time. I kinda went off on a tangent but yeah… I can see it both ways.