Is anyone else completely uninterested in speech therapy?

Is anyone else completely uninterested in speech therapy? I've tried it in the past and I've found it to be unhelpful. It just gives me more to think about when I'm trying to talk, which makes me more anxious, which makes it harder to talk. I'm already hyper-aware of the physical mechanics of speech and how I would have to move my mouth to say something. Thinking about it just makes it so much worse. I've started carrying a notepad around to use when I have to order food or something like that, and having the option to just not talk is a massive weight off my shoulders. I'm able to express myself without getting stuck. I recognize that it's okay to get stuck and it's okay to stutter and people are more understanding and accommodating that you'd expect, but that doesn't make it any less frustrating. When I mentioned this to my family, it really upset them. They told me I shouldn't just give up, that I should give it another try, but I really don't feel that way. I haven't given up. I've just found another way, and it's made my life so much easier.