I've been trying very hard to stay positive for the last month or so. I can tell you that it's very hard! I saw that you mentioned that it is the peoples reaction that bothers you, which bothers me a lot too, since 'we' get a lot of weird reactions when people hear our stutter. The best tip I can give you is to 'not give a fuck'. At first it might seem like a hard task, but just try to act casual when you stutter and don't look bothered. Feel free to pm me if you need someone to talk to :)