I remember how that was. replaying events and conversations where I wanted to say something but didn't, or stuttered so bad I didn't enjoy it. it's tough. I actually did a speech course that helped alot, and after I finished, I called my friends and apologized for times when I had a bad stutter. the strange thing was they either said it didn't matter or they didn't notice. I'm not saying it's all in our heads but our real friends don't care. hope that helps.