It is hard I know, It is frustrating I know. Sometimes it feels unbearable, but... It will not disappear in one day, maybe it will not disappear in one year.. but that is the real problem our wanting for it to disappear, for it do be gone. This wanting it creates so much pain. You may not notice how much hate there is towards this problem or you may not want to acknowledge it, at least that is how it was for me and still somehow is. When these situations come where I have to face this problem sometimes I just want to run and hide, but I have noticed that when I don't run and am ready to accept the pain and unpleasant feelings that come from the situation the easier it is the next time this kind of situation comes to let go of my fear and pain and to accept my situation. It is like a paradox.. the more I run and hide the more it persists and controls me.. but you see it doesn't control me literally, rather I let it control me by giving in to it, by giving in to the fear, to the pain. Actually there might be nothing wrong with stammering, it might be quite normal, just a joke, just a trick we play with ourselves, because we don't want to face it and other things that are connected with it. It is hard to accept our own responsibility for this problem, maybe because if we are responsible, if it is our own fault then we blame ourselves or someone, but there is no need to blame anybody, just to see how we are responsible for whatever happens to us. It is hard to accept responsibility for unpleasant things that happen to us, the more unpleasant thing the more difficult to accept our own responsibility in bringing it about, for pleasant things, yes we are responsible for pleasant things, but for unpleasant things.. noo, noo. The path out of this problem is quite frustraiting and can be quite depressing if we make it so.. you see? It is our own hate that is burning us about this problem, just let go of it, let go of it, but you can't let go of it, all you can do is take one step after another until you reach a point where you don't hate yourself and others about this problem so much, the less hate towards yourself the more comfortable you will feel. You can't get rid of hate completely just like that, but you can lessen it, by looking, and looking in the right direction. Learn to forgive, forgive yourself, forgive others. Be less harsh towards yourself and others. Learn to give. Learn to accept. Every bad thing you can turn around and make a good thing. But don't over do it. Take it easy, relax. You don't have to speak. If you want to speak, speak, even if you stammer, it is okey. If you don't want to speak because of your stammer then don't speak, but then look what comes about, what kind of feelings come about, what are you feeling.. I am not perfect, I still stammer and have other negative qualities about myself, but so are you your stammer is not the only negative thing about you.. if you feel that you are not ready to face stammering yet then start with the other little things, for example, just being friendly without speaking, just saying a simple 'hello', it's okay, maybe you want to do more than that, it's okey, it is okey not to get what you want all the time. If you really want something from the bottom of your heart then you will find the strength to take another step forwards in the right direction, because that is all we can do - to take a step in the right direction, that is all we can truly do. What is right, you have to find out for yourself.