Sorry, but jumping off a bridge isn't brave. Far from it. The self-pity really bothers me, and I have a severe stutter as well. Brave is FACING your problems head on, not escaping them. Not cowering in fear of your own fallback. Dealing with a stutter is NOT easy in the slightest. Speaking is a necessity in life, and having a disorder that heavily impedes on it is really hard. If positivity is making you nauseous it's hard to tell what the status of your mental battle is but I'm assuming you're having a really tough time. I really hope you can find strength in fighting this inner fight - even if it has to be forever. It usually is a lifelong fight, and it builds so much character and strength. I don't recommend you come onto a subreddit of a community trying to help one another and tell us our positivity is annoying you. I understand why it is annoying you if you feel helpless. There's so much good that stutterers can do for the world, what we can teach, the people we can help, etc. Our stories are far and few between, yet very helpful to others. This subreddit consists of people fighting this fight. Asking advice, telling success and failure stories, and we all learn. I'm very sorry that you are in a very difficult place, and probably often. You're probably in this place all the time. I hope you can find that true bravery and courage and face the inner demon we all share. It's constant ups and down. But the ups feel so damn good and I live for those. We shouldn't forfeit our happiness to this fucking speech demon. Much love