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Today was one of those days Had a meeting with 20+ people for over 3 hours. Everyone was going through turns sharing their ideas. It was my turn and I had so many great ideas, now just to share it. First sentence went well 🙂. In the second, I started have blocks a bit but not a deal breaker. And by the 3rd, my anxiety was so through the roof that I stuttered so badly and had repetitions which is the one people notice the most. I didn't even have the willpower to share the rest of my ideas anymore at that point and just concluded my speech and smiled at everyone. 3 mins later, I hung up in the middle of the meeting and started crying. I'm getting more senior and finding myself in more meetings where I'm messing up because of my speech. I have amazing ideas but I can't even do basic speech. Makes me so sad. Anyways I got in turn with a therapist because I have been very depressed and I'm also looking into a speech therapist as well. Even though it may not work, it's nice to have someone to talk to I guess.