I wouldn't be able to have the satisfaction of not stuttering

I wouldn't be able to have the satisfaction of not stuttering From what I've read here, one person mostly stops stuttering when he doesn't care about his speech at all. When he treats stuttering with the same indifference he would treat fluency. Idk if I'm avoiding this because above everything I want to have the satisfaction of not stuttering when I get there, but it seems that the only way to get there is not even looking for it. So how do you desire something and at the same time don't give a damn whether you accomplish your goal or not?