I’m not sure exactly what you mean in your post but in case you need someone to say it, please hang in there ❤️ You are loved and even though it can feel alone out there in the real world, remember how many of us here in this community know exactly what you are going through. When you feel despair, know that it is possible to love and be loved by others. Everyone is human. When you feel scared to talk to someone because of your stutter, remind yourself that that person is a human and you are a human. They are not waiting around to hate you because you stutter. If you want someone to love you, ask them to love you — not with words (necessarily), but with your attitude, by being open and vulnerable and trusting. People may be uncomfortable at first, but give them time and keep coming towards them with an open heart.