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Stuttering Makes Life A Curse i hate stuttering. But more then that I hate seeing other people talk so easily and carefree. Use giving a presentation as an example. I can put so much effort into my presentation and speech, edit it for hours and practice it in the mirror, and then when the time comes to do the speech I fail and stutter, but other kids who put no effort in can get up and speak easily and get a better mark then me purely because I cant even speak. It's just not fair at all that I have to live life barely able to perform the simplest of tasks that 99% of people do without a second's thought. It's not fair that I get the incurable, barely treatable condition that limits my ability to communicate, an integral part of life. Why the fuck do I have to worry about what I WANT to say compared to what I CAN say. ​ I hate life and I hate that I'm too afraid to kill myself. I can literally sit for hours daydreaming about actually doing it, and what would happen next: nothing. No consciousness, no stress, no COMMUNICATION. I'm annoyed that people seem to resent suicide so much as well. Why is it bad to want to end all your worries and stress? People recommend therapy and to stop "stressing so much", but the problem is even with years of therapy the curse is never completely lifted, and how can you stop stressing so much when you can barely have a conversation with other HUMANS. A key area of human health is being social, well guess what, fuck you, you're never going to be able to be social because whatever attempt you make to do so you get shot down and embarassed and end up regretting ever deciding to open your mouth. The most disgusting part is that there are people who stutter way worse then me, stuttering on literally every word, and they still manage to muster up some excuse for living. I don't know how I could force myself to go on if I was in their shoes, and it's so unfair and stupid that people can have their whole future taken away from them before they even take their first breath. ​ I don't know what I hope to achieve with this post and I'm sorry if I make any stutterer here feel worse about their situation. I just hate that even though I'm alive, I'll never get to actually live my life.