You're better than that. You can do this. Don't just walk away, but have confidence knowing you're a good person. I feel the pain you're in, having just gotten sober. My best advice is to keep your head up, and keep moving forward. You will have experiences every day that will make you want to drink. I'm 3+ years sober and still get the urge most days. Just know that your life is better, and healthier (physically and mentally), than it was when you were drinking. It doesn't help when we get put down for our stutter, or shortcomings, but you are a good person and deserve happiness. Passing along an internet hug to you my friend. You're brave. You're enough. You've got this. DM me anytime you need a chat.