Been there done that (I’m 24) fell deep into heavy drug use it helps temporary but ruins your perception of life and things in it including yourself. I felt like it was the best way to cope but the come downs only make you feel worse about it until you think you’re numb but that numb is actually a wolf in sheep’s clothing it’s pain and dangerous man. I hope you find solace in your stutter bc the drug route is one I wish upon nobody. Find an outlet and express yourself through that since expressing vocally come difficult