There’s no growth if you stay within your comfort zone. If you want to isolate yourself, go for it. I was in your position last year, I hated myself, hated everyone, didn’t want to do anything. I pushed through, started doing things I didn’t want to like making phone calls, ordering drinks at a bar, etc. I was horrible but at the end of day, it didn’t hurt doing it. I got what I wanted and most importantly, im in a way better place now because I pushed myself out of my comfort zone