I'm sorry that you are going through this! My advice is to keep practicing. Go on as many dates as you can (unless the other person seems like a complete psycho). I remember going on this one date and I thought I completely blew it with this girl, but after I got home it turns out she didnt even notice (or didnt care) and we actually went on a few more dates after that! I bet I can speak for many guys in saying that we are looking for people that have their **** together, and you seem to be doing very well for yourself.