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It is true that if you socialize more, you can come to control your stutter to a certain extent. It's not easy. Because we already have extreme social anxiety out of the fear that we would be ridiculed for stuttering. It's a very gradual process. I am speaking as someone who has been able to tackle my stutter somewhat by socially engaging more. This might be a long message. As a child, I used to get bullied for stuttering. Never like really violent bullying but backhanded comments, silent laughter and teachers used to skip me if there would be some occasion for speaking and stuff. That really got to me so by the time I was in middle school, I gave up on trying to socialize. I really contracted to the point where I had very less friends and didn't speak in class at all. No teacher would even notice that I was in class. That made my stutter worse because during viva voce and other speech-oriented tests, I used to stutter and fumble a lot because I wasn't accustomed to speaking. Staying silent also minimised my ability to control my speech. I remember once there was this new teacher who had asked me to read out from a textbook and I stuttered. She didn't catch the fact that I stuttered but she did say that I was getting blocks because I wasn't accustomed to reading out aloud and that kind of changed my perspective on stuttering a little. But even then I didn't start socializing, but I did practice leading out loud at home. When I was in senior high, I gradually started socializing. Not much. I'd just speak one word or two word phrases in class. Spoke with my friends. I fortunately had friends who understood. I interacted in class but very less, yet I was interacting and that helped me open up quite a bit. Plus, the fact that since I was a humanities student, our class had a strength of 14 pupils also helped. Lesser the people, the more freely I could speak. Now, when i got into college, I started teaching kids as a side hustle and at the beginning, I'd have difficulty explaining stuff but I managed somehow. In college, I kept my interactions small. Then, by and by, I started socializing more. It wasn't until the end of my second year that I got into a mental health internship where I found the space to speak ABOUT my stutter. We had a small stutter workshop. I spoke as the organizer, shared my experiences, told people about the things I face and what gestures would make me comfortable. I stuttered A LOT, trust me. I was scared that someone might stop me but everyone listened with a good heart. Then, I'd have regular sessions in that internship, panel discussions and even though I wasn't as active as the rest, I did interact so that was a step up. Next, I got accepted for a paper presentation at a college and I was scared as anything. I got into touch with my mental health internship supervisors and they told me that the key to face your fear is to accept the fact that you have a stutter, but then you also need to accept the fact that it doesn't matter. People who want to listen to you will listen even if you have a stutter. People who won't listen will simply cut you off even if you don't stutter. With that in mind, I presented the paper. Again, I stuttered a lot. I actually gave a disclaimer that I stutter so please bear with me and the professor who was chairing the session simply said it didn't matter. After I had finished, he told me that I did great and that my stutter was actually beautiful and he even told me he was grateful to see me face my fear. Now, this was kinda of cheesy but it did add to my self-esteem. Here, you can take the fact home that once you open up and socialize, you will meet a lot of people who will shun your stutter, but you mean an equal lot of people who will encourage you, support you and egg you on to the path of healing. You are healing from the trauma associated with stuttering, not stuttering itself. Stuttering is not a bad thing. The stigma is what puts us down. Now, after college, I got into another internship where I was an art gallery guide and it was a talking job. I was scared but by now, my self esteem was better. I struggled the first week but then the more I talked and associated, it became easier for me. Now, I am pursuing my master's degree and I am at a much better place than I was back in 2019. Much much better. It could happen to me only through exposure therapy. I am not saying that the same will happen for everyone because everyone has their own ways of healing, but if you want to, you can go for exposure therapy because I feel like stuttering also has to do with your confidence so the more confident you are, the better you will be in charge of your speech flow. Good luck!