Do you recommend antidepressants? I cant choose
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Do you recommend antidepressants? I cant choose I’ve been kind of depressed for a years now mainly because of my stuttering. My emotions are so sensitive that only one somewhat rude sentence can make me to to for my shell if you know what i mean. I feel many times like a loser and dont want to interact with people. When I meet new people my social anxiety goes over the roof and i stutter more which makes everything worse. But then I have good days when everything is beautifull and great! Nowadays there are fewer days when I feel this way. Once about 3 years ago I went to a physiatrist and she wrote me a subscription to ssri meds. I took one pill and stopped because I feared that it will change me to ”gray” and all the things I heard from them was bad. Some months was great and some was bad but these last 3 years was mainly not so good. Did not make progress and was kind of a down hill for me. I have a steady life. Great partner, financially in a good situation (relatively to my age 22) and everything looks good from the outside. I also went to a therapy once last winter and the physiatrist said that I was somewhat normal and thought that these things was not ordinary so I thought that I was a bit too harsh on myself and didnt went there again. Now when Its summer I spend major of my time in home. Alone or with my partner. I picture in my head these scenarios that I wouldnt stutter or be depressed and could enjoy my life in its fullest but in reality I am too scared and vulnerable to do things i dream of. And now I’m in the same situation where I was 3 years ago. I have the same meds in my house and I’m struggling to choose if i should take anti depressants or not. I am very creative and my career is very creative oriented so that would be awfull if I couldnt be able to do creative thinking and planning the same way as before. Please tell me your own experiences of anti depressants! It is really hard to choose 😞 and sorry for my grammar