Dude it is for me too. Please listen to this maybe it will motivate you. At age 12 i was this happy outgoing kid, but then masturbation and porn became a part of my life and i became so addicted to it. I fapped many times a day. When you watch porn and masturbate you fuck your dopamine levels up, which makes your confidence go low, anxiety go up, and depression go up. Please give it a try, i feel like a kid again, it's amazing :)