Check out SLPStephen on IG —a stutterer and speech pathologist. Has some great vids, awesome comprehensive Tx protocols to try for free or pay program also. Super reasonable and evidence based. The irregularities of stuttering make it confusing and challenging. Avoidance behaviors compound reactions and behavioral aspects… I don’t struggle daily anymore unless I switch languages, but I had a long period in college where I couldn’t answer the phone—silent block. Your breakthrough is coming…it might involve some acceptance and introducing yourself as a stutterer (and how you work with it) and maybe you can start some intentional stuttering with controlled pacing. Better to do it on your terms!! Def rec checking out his page—has done a ton of work and he models acceptance and teaching others about stuttering really well.