I go to depression ( I don't know if it is depression) when I stay at home. But when I am at college or with people my mind is always occupied about other people's perspective. So i just go along with time rather than staying stagnant. And when I'm with people I do struggle speaking and they say "what" a couple of times. It is fine if they ask cuz they are not understanding what I'm telling and if i repeat myself then the chances that they can understand me are higher. So why not tell them again? The point of talking or any form of communication is to let people know what's going on in your head right. And some people straight up just ignore me cuz they can't understand me and before I use to feel sad and angry but now I can see a change in me which is i am giving less a damn. It is tough to think fuck them but I feel that the more you experience these situations, the faster you will accept yourself and give a less damn about it. We are in this together. Hopefully we will reach that stage as soon as possible!