Hey Bastian, It was moving to read your post. I am not a stutterer but I am married to one! (For 11 years now, and we have a child together). Ironically I was searching for CBD oil impact on stammering based on a recent article I had read in the BBC and ended up here :) But wow, reading your post, all I can say is you are so young now and that things change - how you view yourself will change with time :) Stammering is not at all the worst thing in the world even though it might feel to you like it is. I'd say my husband has many faults but his stammering is never one of those!! Its just part of who he is. My husband works in IT, and he used to have quite a heavy stammer, but it never used to impact on his career much as he was a software programmer in the beginning and communication was just one of many skills that he needed to appy in his job. When he started on the management path, he did start feeling a lot more self-concious, and he did some therapy a few years ago (McGuire Programme, UK based) and learnt some techniques to handle his stammering better. It helped for a while I think (based on what he said), and again he felt he was getting a bit stuck and not having real growth. He changed companies, and reestablished himself on the back of his technical skills, and he is now in quite a senior position and has just basically accepted that he will stammer at certain times when he is on team calls, and his team have also accepted it (they have changed with the times too!). I believe he could have made it easier for himself by pursuing a purely technical career path where no one expects one to have stellar conversation skills, but he wants to prove himself as he enjoys the other aspects that come with management :) But that is not to say he doesn't have his moments where he does still get a bit anxious (for instance, he has been requested to do a demo for more than 100 people later this week, and he is taking a day off ahead of that, just to prepare better and get into the right mindset etc - main reason I'm here currently to see if CBD based solution will just take the edge of his anxiety when he goes in front of his audience. But again that is just me - he didnt even think about CBD and I know he will manage it well anyway on his own - and even if he doesn't so what? the content of his presentation will speak for itself!). Anyway, another thing what I would like to say is that everyone faces stress in life - if its not stammering, its something else. If anyone gets upset or feels embarassed that you stammer, its their problem not yours!! Life is too short to be bogged down by this - the whole world is yours! Just do what you want in life - school will pass, as will university - pursue your passion and life will happen :) Cheers.