How old are you? Also being a rich white guy with blonde hair and blue eyes doesn't matter in the slightest. But if your family as money to spend on helping you, I would recommend going to the NSA conference in Washington DC. check out www.westutter.org and look up the conference information. Im not one to exaggerate but im fairly certain you'll have the experience very valuable and have a wonderful time. But again, you dont need to feel guilty about the fact that you're still having such a hard time despite growing up with so many advantages. But I encourage you to take those advantages that your parents worked to earn and take action to help you. There are a lot of great speech therapy programs out there. But I really do think that going to the NSA conference in July would be the best first step you can take. I think it'll really break you out and you're guaranteed to make friends.