Try starting with finding online friends. Im sure some people in this community are looking for online friends who get it. Sometimes I am really depressed and can barely stand interacting with people. I know that part of what will get me out of the depression is human interaction. So when I need to I try to think of social interaction like a pill. Something I have to do every day for my health. Even if I just speak my order to a cashier I consider the box checked. Give other people the chance to be nice to you. Rooting for you OP