It’s kind of killed my confidence and prevented a lot of my dating experiences. I probably stutter every fifth of so word but it’s not something people immediately notice so they chalk it up to shyness/nervousness. It’s the people that I see frequently that really know I stutter. I feel you on the part where talking to girls/women you’re interested and you stutter kills you and makes you feel embarrassed. And there’s a certain “look” you get where they kinda feel sorry for you for stuttering and also at the same time want to get away from you because you’re stuttering is wasting time/killing the vibe of the conversation. It’s had a missed effect on me as an adult though. Sometimes I’m glad and sometimes I fucking it. I’m glad I grew up with a stutter because it’s legitimately made me give 0 fucks about what people think of me, so I’ve pretty much been free to do whatever. I’ve however hated it because it amplifies and get BAD whenever I’m talking to somebody I’m attracted to and that fucks me up. Socially and platonically, it’s a blessing. Dating and romantically, it’s a fucking disaster.