I hate this so much..

I hate this so much.. It's really annoying when you want to say something but you can't. I stutter and it's the worst thing ever. Whenever there's presentations or situations when I have to talk in front of people it's very stressful. It's times where it seems like I have some other disorder. Sometimes I can't pronounce words right and its times where I can't even read properly. Even when I don't stutter I struggle even saying words right.. This is ridiculous. Having a soft voice doesn't help either.. I talk so fast and it really messed with my head when people don't understand me.. It sucks