I don't think any pills gonna help. Just remembered going to a speech therapist/neurologist before my important English exam that required speaking, he prescribed me a tranq, and the next day I spoke so badly I regretted actually going there. Maybe it's just my personal experience, but I think it's all bullshit. Also someone told alcohol helps but I hate to be drunk. You know, if you're stressed out by the community you're in, even if it's your life's work, I would at least consider a change of scenery. My situation now allows me to shy away from most socializing, but it used to be a quiet horror when I had to perform and I was literally gasp, and of course always catch glances of misunderstanding and ridicule. Once, in an argument with someone, I was told in front of everyone that I should first learn to talk normally before opening my mouth. I'm sure you and others like us have had this happen many times. It really seems like the only way to feel better about yourself.