Hi there! Thanks for the quick answer, I generally have to agree with most of the things here, especially so with the music. With the point about blaming yourself, you shouldn't beat yourself up about it, I recently played a game called Celeste and it gave me a new point of view on this whole situation and with mental health as a whole, now I try to work with my stammer and be patient with it and I'm finding more often than not taking my time with the words and mouthing them before I actually say them actually helps me when I'm trying to speak. Try not to get down about it, if you ever need to talk about it with someome we have a whole community of people who are happy to help!