In all honesty man you’ll be fucked for the rest of your life. Just like how I was people like us are meant to get treated like shit like we’re less then human. That’s just how the world is. We didn’t do anything to deserve this but this is what we have to deal with. They all say it get better with time but it doesn’t it only gets worse and worse until we eventually can’t handle the pain anymore and die. This is a lonely debilitating condition I was cursed to have too I’m only 18 but my life been a living hell for as long as I can remember. The only thing keeping me going is to fulfilling my dream I had since I was a kid, being able to finally talk normal and I got 2 little brothers that I wanna watch grow up. I hope you find something too that keeps you going it’s one of the most hardest things to find but you’ll be glad when you do. Good luck man your gonna need it.