I had an intense dysarthia and stutter - I couldn't form words properly at all, and at times was essentially not able to be understood except by my friends. I worked really hard in speech therapy, and through theatre and performance courses to improve my speech and it worked. I speak with almost 100% fluency now and ... I kind of hate it. I miss my old voice, and everyone telling me that I've done so well doesn't get that it feels really weird to speak fluently and kind of like I apologised and changed a part of myself to fit in. I was actively debilitated, but I miss it because I felt more authentic to myself before I fixed it and now, going back would feel so much like a failure ... so it kind of feels like I'm forced by expectations and my own internalised issues to have this weird version of my voice.