Hey man, you sound like a really bitter person. Why do you dislike therapy and speech pathologists? I haven’t been to one in years. But after quitting weed, starting a masters degree and wanting to get my life back on track, I began weekly counseling at a speech pathologist. It is no miracle cure, but I have slow and steadily been making progress. Have you had no luck with such? You shouldn’t discourage people in seeking help, that can end up being very harmful. Even though you might not have gained anything from it, perhaps the next person will.