Ok. Whatever makes you feel happy. If you have to fake to be a part of a group, i truly doubt if you can authentically ever feel part of that group. But again, I would be happy to be wrong and hope that whatever you are doing is a proper treatment for whatever problem you are diagnosed with. I am a bit critical about it as a concern, I don’t give a fuck about ideology. I wouldn’t be critical about it anymore to you. Hope you take wise decisions