You are not alone my friend. The fact that you came here and are part of the community shows that you understand your needs and you're doing what needs to be done to better your situation. You said yourself you were getting better at avoidance techniques. The goal is not to get to perfect speech, the goal is to keep walking towards it. Everybody has to deal with some sort of struggle, that's what keeps us alive. Try to focus on self-compassion and to speak through your actions. Help others, show kindness, remain in the spirit of love and your stutter will feel like an afterthought. God bless my friend and never hesitate to come back here again to vent or share with others.