commentr/StutterMarch 8, 2019

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I would love to give you an easy way out, but unfortunately there isn't. I'm from Italy [M 23], and i too have a not severe stutter, that i always hide with quick word swaps, pauses and accurately placed "uhms". When you stutter for 16 years you start to come up with ways to cope with it. I became so good that people don't even realize i stutter, but i do seem like the shy kind of guy. Even if others can't tell i stutter, I DO, and thats more than enough to bother me. I've always been hiding it, which means i never really accepted myself, and that is a huge burden to carry. The need to always look "normal" to others is psycologically exausting, and an overall self-destructing activity, but it's a normal thing to do for me, since i did it for so long. Only recently i really began to try not to think about my stutter, to put myself in situations i normally wouldn't. That's the only way to gain confidence, if you keep running away from those situations it's only gonna get worse. Start slow, like asking for something at the supermarket, make an extra phone call to someone and stuff like that. For example, i always avoided asking for fresh bread at the supermarket because i was afraid i would stutter and make a fool of myself. Every time i picked up the pre-packed one it was a little failure, adding up to the already big pile of failures and missed oppurtunities i always blame my stutter for. Thing is, i'm the one that let it control my life like this, i'm the main culprit. So i realized i could do it, and i just did. It went well and i do it every time now. Confidence is key, and i find that if i stop talking to people for a couple of days my insecurities grow back pretty fast, so it's a long process. If you want to chat a bit, feel free to pm me, good luck!

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Anticipation & AvoidanceIdentity & Disability

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Avoidance & SubstitutionHiding & ConcealmentAuthenticity vs. MaskingAcceptance & Pride

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