But don’t you think my problem isn’t physical ? Because when I lost sense of my self like actors do I don’t stutter and I hard block when I’m feeling intense emotions. If it was also physical don’t you think I couldn’t speak when I’m alone or when I’m with my brother but I speak fluently. I’m only 18 and I’ve decided to join the army that way I can stop being so depressed every single day. I’m losing faith in god slowly and slowly becuase why would I need to suffer like this ever single day