Suicidal thoughts range along a pretty wide spectrum from your brain thinking "oh that might be a nice escape mechanism from all my problems" as one of many passing thoughts to well, what results in a way trip at the darker end of things. I love life too, but it's not unusual for me to have a day or even an hour where I think "why can't I just die?" when things are bad. Still worth talking these things anyway. Suicidal thoughts (wherever on the spectrum) are more common than anyone cares to admit and a lot of people suffer them in silence.