I agree with the other comments. It’s like a disabled person wondering what they could do if they could walk. To be brutally honest, it’s a destructive behavior and you’re imagining impossibility. As hard as it sounds, you have to learn to accept it. I’ve had my stutter for years, and I still haven’t accepted it, but it’s a work in progress. Good luck on accepting your life. I’m with you every step of the way!