Vent: My boss and the world are so clueless about stuttering....

Vent: My boss and the world are so clueless about stuttering.... Sup lol, just a random rant to reflect on my speech as of late and how it makes me realize how uneducated and misinformed *most* people are about stuttering. Lately my speech has been going through a period of the worst disfluency I've experienced in years. It's had a significant impact at work, but thankfully my output in the company is still relatively better compared to other people my level and I am extremely reliable (*not a humble brag, just a comment about how stuttering people compensate in other way*s). Moreover, I work a standard associate level corporate job and require to meet my manager on a frequent basis. For the past few weeks, I've have an extremely difficult time communicating with the guy and it almost makes me wanna smash the meeting desk every time we have a 1:1..I try my best to calm down, relax and try any/all speech therapy techniques that I've learned to date but nothing works..absolutely nothing. I thrash my tongue around my mouth, fidget, twitch and try whatever I can to get the tension out. The blocks feel like I'm getting trolled by my own brain and in today's meeting, my manager confidently states that he believes my inability to speak is only an expression of my inner "nervousness/anxiety" and nothing more. He's a really nice boss and respectful about my speech at all times, but this moment resulted in an epiphany for me that **not many people know what stuttering truly is considering it affects only 1% of the global population.** I try my best to be a positive person and keep away from the bad vibes, but wow it truly is rough when your speech hits rock bottom with no warning. What makes it even worse is that you have to sit there trying to explain it to other people, but they cannot possibly understand / comprehend the true nature of this condition.. When most people block, I presume that the average person would initially react by assuming the individual has either/or a combination of anxious, scared, in pain, clueless, tweaked out, autistic, etc.. At this point, I feel that most people only recognize stuttering as the repetition of a sound/word multiple times and nothing more. In what manner can anyone learn about the nuances, unpredictability, complications, secondhand twitches/reactions, lack of air flow, deranged tongue movements....LOL I could go on forever... I appreciate any advice in situations like this, but honestly I'm not looking for that. I just feel that this example may set the tone for many of you that have shared similar experiences. I hope that I succeed to the point in life where I can spread awareness of this condition to some degree in the world. I'm more blessed than most people out there and I know a stuttering can be fucking devastating sometimes (mind my language sorry) but we can on going and we find ways to succeed..I'll always continue to work on my speech and am more than happy to offer any guidance/advice to people in highschool/college that are anxious about the workforce once they graduate. ​ Cheers