Hey, wow. You explained how you feel super well. I resonate a lot as I have been here countless times. I have 2 things to say: 1. Yes, open up! explain to her how you felt, no matter how she responds, you get to know you did your part. 2. I'm willing to bet we have all been in a situation where we ask ourselves “is the payoff for speaking with the stress and effort it will take?”. I’ve been there countless times. I’m here to tell you, the payoff for speaking is always worth the effort. No matter the stuttering state you are in. Your truth is always worth the effort. There will come a time when you are speaking and it's stressful and full of effort, and then CLICK, something switches. You gain a sense of belonging and you realize you’re enough. Suddenly speaking comes effortlessly. This click never comes in avoidance… In holding back. This click comes in facing your fear and speaking even when your brain tells you not to. My biggest breakthroughs that have allowed me to overcome stuttering have been through my hardest stuttering moments. Moments where every ounce of my brain tells me to stop talking but I keep on. Eventually something will click, I promise.