i feel that. my sister isn’t the nicest person, she knows i can’t help my speech but she’ll still sometimes tell me “for fucks sake alfie just spit it out”. this has resulted in my avoiding my sister where possible. if i go downstairs to make food and she’s in the kitchen making food too, i don’t care how hungry i am i’ll leave and wait til she’s done. i too try to find peace in me being behind my peers mentally and emotionally. my mum keeps telling me that not everyone will be at the same place at the same age so i’m trying not to panic over that too much