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Thank you for responding and sharing your story! My husband was genuinely concerned about becoming a father and feeling like a failure due to his stuttering, which made him doubt his capabilities (just like you mentioned). I continually reassure him that our baby doesn’t mind his stutter and he is a wonderful father. Sometimes, I feel like he might not fully trust or believe my words. It's possible that I might be saying the wrong things… We've been together for almost 10 years. Right from the start of our relationship, I refrained from commenting on his stutter. Knowing that his family had attempted various methods to "cure" it for years without success, I chose to accept, nurture, and love him just the way he is. His stutter never bothered me. He's an incredible person, and I enjoy talking to him about anything and everything. Everything was going well until he began displaying signs of anger, mood swings, and avoidance. He began seeking solutions for his stutter. I supported his efforts, but whenever I came across potential information that could help, he would dismiss it immediately. I learned to simply nod and avoid making suggestions. This seemed to maintain our relationship until he began searching for medication to cure his stutter. Initially, it was manageable, but the side effects turned severe, causing him to stop temporarily. Two years ago, he resumed the medication at higher doses, resulting in personality changes, excessive sleep (14-18 hours a day), and other dysfunctions. Feeling the need to intervene, I tried, but he shut me out and continued until our daughter was born. The withdrawal period was horrible and lasted around a month. I forgot to mention that my husband has a couple of close friends, a stable job, and a supportive family. Since our daughter's arrival, I have taken on all caregiving tasks and ensure he gets 8-10 hours of uninterrupted sleep every night. He consistently states that the issue lies with him, not us, and that he intends to resolve it. I understand that stuttering is extremely complex and places a heavy mental burden on individuals. I have also accepted that I won’t be able to understand exactly what my husband goes through. However, the cycle he pushes all of us through seems paradoxical to me: He stutters. It bothers him and affects his mental state. He has found the tools that work for him but won’t use them (techniques from speech therapy), so he continues to stutter and so on. I feel like I've been giving him time and space, but now I feel concerned for our daughter. She is almost 6 months old, and her dad is not interacting with her willingly. I apologize for this rant, but it's been very challenging and lonely. I received some recommendations in direct messages and will try to apply them.