commentr/StutterJuly 16, 2023

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I can't think of a specific situation. But I've had to have atleast 100 experiences through out life when I literally wanted to kill myself right then & there from excruciating embarrassment. In high school being forced to stand up infront of the class for a oral report & not being able to get a word out & sounding like a retarded freight train with everybody falling out they're seat laughing at me & roasting me, has to be high up there tho. Another is trying to talk to a crush & not being able to get a word out & with intense stuttering & blockages, and having her laugh in my face & roast the shit out of me. Those 2 where examples but I've been through similar situations like these countless times throughout my life. The fact I stayed strong & haven't offed myself is a miracle to me. At a certain level of severe stuttering social interaction is just not worth it. No matter all the positive bullshit people tell you "that people don't care if you stutter" & "people that judge you don't matter" ect. Reality is reality. 95% of people are going to either view you as beneath them or not want to associate with you..or just use you. It's up to you as a individual to decide wether it's going to effect you & ruin your life or if your going to persever in life.

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Anticipation & AvoidanceEmotional Experience

Subthemes

Avoidance & SubstitutionShame & EmbarrassmentAnxiety & Social Judgment

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