I don't know. I don't enjoy talking, it takes a lot of physical effort for me. So I tend to stay quiet and avoid social settings. When I have tried to talk at social work events and such, I just block really bad and it becomes so awkward, it's impossible for me to actually talk about my interests and such. People at work just kind of know that I'm the weird guy who can't talk, so they don't try to interact with me. Thats just the truth and not delusion. I am fine having no friends to be honest, but the idea of living alone forever and never having my own family scares me a bit. I was just wondering if anyone here has an alternative suggestion to just 'get a hobby lol'.